please let me know..

I'm trying to hate u when u call me
but I can't
I'm trying to be like as 'just a friend' to u
but I can't
I'm trying to doesn't care whenever u don't call me
but I can't

whenever u call me
I'm happy
whenever u said u care to me
I'm happy
whenever u said u miss me
I'm very happy

but what can I do??
I'm trying to trust u anymore
but u lied to me again and again
and u just go away without any report

don't u ever said I didn't even notice
I knew and I have been searching u
I'm trying to send u a message
but u haven't been replied until now

what the hell is on ur mind when u said that??
u said u miss me
and u wanna give an effort to met me that day
but what???
even u don't give me a report
until today

I hate if I must hate u
I hate if I can't keep in touch with u
but I hate if ur still lying to me again and again
so please, don't lying to me again

I ever said that I hate u
I ever said that I don't want to met u again
I ever said that I don't want to be friend with u again
I'm sorry, I didn't meant it
that's just an expression of my feeling
besides, that's happen long time ago

and we're still be best friend
and u said, I'm the best of all ur best friends
and I know for sure, ur the best too
but why are u leave me now?
without any notification?

u just go away
and take my heart away too
I don't wanna lose u
not again
altough we're just friend
I don't wanna lose u again like I did before
so please come back to me

please let me know
where are u now?
what do u do now?
what are u thinking now?
what are ur feeling now?
please let me know u like u did before