Can I?

Can I tell u a secret?
Can I ask u something?
I even don't need ur permission
But I just wanna tell u something
I just wanna ask u something

I secretly missing u
I secretly loving u
I secretly hoping u still love me
and I secretly want u back to me

do u still miss me?
do u still love me?
do u still hope that I still love u?
and do u still want me to be a part of ur life?

If I still miss u, do u mind it?
If I still love u, do u mind it?
If I still hope u to love me, do u mind it?
and if I still want u back to me, do u mind it?

tell me if u still miss me
tell me if u still love me
tell me if u still hope that I still love u
and tell me if u still want me to be a part of ur life
coz I'll always miss u
I'll always love u
and I'll always be the part of ur life

but if u don't,
why did u say u miss me?
why did u say I'm the only one who can match with u, in many ways?
and why did u come to me again like u ever did before?

can u just go away from my life if u don't love me anymore?
can u just go away from my life if u don't want me in ur life anymore?
and can u just go away and don't ever trying to search me if u just wanna be friend with me?

but if u don't love me anymore
if u don't want me anymore
and if u really go away from my life forever,
can I accept that?
can I forgot u?
can I just live my life freely like before?
can I?

I still miss u
I still love u
I still hope ur still love me
and I still want u back to me

but will that happen?
will u still love me?
will u still want me?

doesn't matter whatever ur answer
I just wanna write what's on my mind
please don't hate me coz of this
and please don't go away from me