what will u do?

what will u do or what will u think if u know that people u like is changed his relationship status from 'single' become to 'in a relationship with xxx'? broken hearted? i think that's will be common answer. but for me? no, it isn't. and hell yeah, i proved it recently.

so, this is the story..

i was chatting with my friend who is his friend too, n talking bout him. n then, my pals come in and said to me, that i must look the facebook and see what happens. at that time, i still dunno what she's talking about. but then, she told me that he is in a relationship now. get shocked? yeah, i didn't deny it. feel dissapointed? a little. but feel heartbroken? nah!! not at all. and from that time, i know that i'm not falling in love with him. not at all. i just like him. nothing more than that. not like my feeling when my ex told me that he had been broke up with his new girl after me. i felt, jealous and a little bit heartbroken. goddammit!! whereas, when he told me that, i had been broke up with him for almost a year and i'm sure i don't have any feeling anymore to him except an ex boyfriend and also, i have been like 'this new boy' (i think).

and now, after a couple week or more knowing that i didn't love 'the new boy', i getting start to remember my ex anymore. okay, he's the sweetest ex that i have than the 2 others, but, he's the past. why the hell still i remember him?? altough, he's not live in the same city like me now. he's back to his hometown after he finished his study. and no more reason for him to back to this city except his graduation ceremony. but what will i do at that time? trying to get him back again? hell, no!! if i do that, and he accept it, it means, we must LDR, and i know it won't work. we've been trying it before, and what did we got?? broke up!! so, i don't wanna hoping him again.. but, recently, i can't remove this feeling to my ex again. dammit!